![]() _______ joshrathkamp.blogspot.com _______ | ![]() Josh Rathkamp What’s Wrong with Being Human I lived two houses down a dead end street. When the river ran rough we checked our basements. We called to each other to help. We hauled boxes up from the dark like large fish. When Mary or Mark or Helen died, little by little, we all did. We sent flowers. The street took to looking like a Cadillac. It grew bolder. It grew rosy cheeks. When Jack repainted, John repainted, and the painters ate lunch on the roof. We said “it looks nice,” nodding at our mailboxes. We waved while shoveling snow off the walkway no one walked but the dogs and our manic-depressive mailman. When we wanted an egg or a glass of milk we drove to the store. We stared out our windows. Our children grew without parents. We grew into speaking without words. We thought our reflections in the lamplight were only there out of loyalty, and, if given a chance, would run like Mrs. Eddie’s dead son naked, through trees. If Practice Made Perfect The neighbor’s child outside could sink his three point shot, the moon could make any man more darling, and those people constantly calling on the phone during dinner could draw us forth like siren song. If practice made perfect there’d be no dicks caught in zippers, no stumbling on stairs, no mischievous cat meowing morning into light, no girl in my car coming home from the bar rubbing her softest spots while I watch, swerve, hit two curbs. There’d be no wind in the window, no rare cool breeze. If practice makes perfect there’d be no deadening drops of sugar in my blood, no way to say through my panic, my needs. If practice made perfect there’d be no sound lovelier than the word used to describe it, no road not mapped, no river worth more than its water. Before God Made Good And God saw that the light was Good. And God separated the light from the darkness. God called the light Day, and the darkness he called Night. —Genesis It is true, what they said, a crow can call a soul into answer. It is true. Before day there was darkness so vast and unimaginable our outspread arms became eyes, the white cataract of a stubbed finger. Those days the wind sifting the fallen leaves didn’t console us, didn’t tell us anything about ourselves except this insistent need for warmth. And we liked it, huddling together, holding our arms up to each other, greeting the old fashioned way, somewhere between a hug and a kiss, no matter what sex we wanted each other to be. We were what we wanted. ![]() | ||