Jim

February in New York

Emerged from subway seeking the Floodwall

(stacked across the Liberty Street Bridge in rows:

100 dRAWers) from New ORleans streetS:UNDERtaken

flood cleanup: assemblingdetritus of the forgotten

who in August sWELTer were overtaken

Lost here. Asked

on Fulton Street,

on Pearl Street,

on Water Street,

Where’s Liberty Street?

A homeless ~~vet~~ called out

Did not turn at the sound

(Don’t see. Don’t hear)

Asked at a newsstand, Where’s Liberty

Street? Didn’tknow (No

idea)

Bought a bus map with (No

detail )

Looked then (back) at the

one hailing another

In Marine green

(sweater bulking underneath)

Everyone unseeing him

Walked back with change

Looked hard, said

Sorry sorrow

sorry cold

sorry snow

Bare head lifted

Bare hands reached

$5 clutched from wind

I, Jonathan, sent to

Beirut and Kuwait

the very edge of Iraq

returnedbrok: en (giv:en

a dia:gnosis ( hear:d

voices, words – to:me –

bombs in my ears) Was traum: atized

Lost Job, was di:vorced

VA put in a shelter with

NO MONEY to wait

TWO YEARS

My name is Jonathan

and my stuff was stolen

so left for THE STREET

where it’scolder but safe

On Front Street,

on Broad Street,

on Cedar Street,

on Broadway,

do you know, Jonathan,

God’s gift, where Liberty

Street IS? Liberty, no, Street, no

one

knows

No one has heard TELL

Do YOU? Hetowered

on the stoop Eyes afire with out-

rage but a-

LIVE and for company he had

the DEAD who knew no more

Beirut no more Liberty

Street

Kept walking (criss-

crossed) Gold Street

Wall Street

MaidenLane

ChurchStreet

Asked at last the police

who stared and stared:

2 blocks turn left

There

was no

there

On Liberty Street (you know th)is:

Ground Zero

After the Flood

afterthe artist of the assemblage work entitled “Floodwall,” Jana Napoli, who says:

“Floodwall speaks of what was lost to Katrinaand what remains of New Orleans.”

Rows and rows ofhouses no longer lived

Rows and rows ofstreets no longer lived

Rows and rows ofdrawers on the streets

“our Atlantis”(aerial view)

In front of 3166____________ (street unidentified)

achain link fence fractures the orange X

spray-paintedon the house (meaning:

“checkedfor corpses”)

7dead stalks 1 dying live oak

2spindly plants near the road with

tinyochre flowers (yellow flax?

floatingprimrose? tall marsh

marigold?)opening toward sun but

not heliotrope(street view)

drawers: striated bymold peelingshelf paper brightgreen & yell-

ow & cherry red& o- rangecarrots lemons

daisies (dazed days) Paintedmoss Laminatebreaking

off from beingunderwater

knobs missing

Sides missing

(owners missing)

“I didn’t

wanted to go back

Is hard”

“I didn’t

lost my home

not my life

“You start to realize

support is in

short supply”

Some of the drawersare solid wood, mahogany carved with fleur-de-lis,

inlaid brass knobs(tarnished wreaths), metal joints bent

Some of the drawersare

“treated plywoodof Southern Yellow Pine withsurface burning characteristics”

Some of the drawersare in pieces: “The pieces are speaking their bro:

ken syllables” (LOL)

One drawer,whitewashed, with cards of saints (Mary? Teresa?) stuck to the bottom (alldetail washed away but the form of women in robes with halos)

One drawer empty,shadows of objects: a cigar ring (pink). a matchbook

(red). A GUESS label with a 10 year warranty(run out, I guess)

One of the drawers,painted fuchsia, empty but for 5 purple, attached, plastic

figurines with smileyfaces

“The city as a whole” “The city asa hole” “Things fell apart here”

“The water holds us” “to its owntime” “Water’s the world”

“we lived in” “What —–now is“ “a ~~comm~~unITy of ~~spir~~it”

“I don’t want to ——

drawers in the new —–,

“What ——- now is

a —-unITy of ——–it”

Jim’s Story

(artist)

Months before Katrina, I started having dreams

of being

in flood water

over and over.

They were not bad dreams,not scary,

but in each dream I was chest deep

in water

making my way to an exit

or an entrance to higher ground.

A lot of people were helping

each other get together

up to higher ground so

there was no fear.

Then I’d wake up.

Our dreams are so peculiar.

You’re in this strange place

and wonder why you’re there

but you go along with it.

I had the same dream many times.

Started in May and went on until

late July or early August

and then it stopped.

I guess if I didn’t get the message

by then I wasn’t going to.

It never dawned on me

my dreams were telling me

something. I’vethought about

what if it registered, Uh-oh,

something dreadful

is going to happen,

but it didn’t so I don’t

know if I would have done

anything differently.

The day we evacuated,

the Sunday before Katrina,

I didn’t want to leave

because every year there’s a hurricane

going to come near New Orleans

and it never does.

It’s hard to determine

the logic of weathermen,

to believe their predictions.

That’s how they make

their money, you know,

scaring us.

I didn’t want to go.

Bob did.

I stayed up Saturday night

and the weatherman said,

It’s going to be a category 5.

I thought, That’s scary.

But we’d heard it before.

In the morning Bob wakes me up,

We’ve got to go, we’ve got to go.

Yea, ok. The neighborscame over,

We have to get out of here.

There were cops everywhere.

It took four hours to leave

Orleans Parish, bumper to bumper.

We drove all the way to Memphis,

the first place with open exits.

We were in the motel room

watching CNN and they were showing

all those people trying to get up to the I-10 overpass

and I said (you don’t want this on tape),

Fuck. I just don’t believe it.

I’d had so many of those dreams

and then to see

all that water pouring into the city

and people stuck there.

It was like watching a bad sci-fi movie,

and you think, This can’t be real.

Your mind tells you,

This can’t be happening.

Earlier that year residents along the 17^th St.Canal

had water welling up in their back yards.

They called the Levee Board, City Hall,

the Corps. Nobodycared.

Someone told them, A water main broke.

What it was

was the dirt levees

were crumbling.

New Orleans sits on a big sponge.

This disaster took 300 years to make.

We couldn’t go back before October.

There was no power, no gas.

Our neighborhood looked okay—

Bywater is two or three feet higher

than the Lower Ninth Ward and that

made all the difference,

two or three feet—

but there were troops everywhere.

They’d wave to us with their guns.

It was all quite friendly and creepy.

We were anxious to get back

for our cats

which we’d left with food and water

enough for a week.

They were mighty skinny.

We will never know

how those cats survived.

The city is like a war zone.

Dark everywhere at night.

Whole neighborhoods gone.

I saw a special—CNN

or Sixty Minutes—about the old New Orleans

but it was the myth,

how it was one big party,

musicians on every street corner,

booze all the time.

I was so angry because

that city never existed.

That isn’t the life we lost.

Mimi’s Story

(professoremerita)

The story that hasn’t been told

is the destruction

of the middle class

of New Orleans.

All you heard was poor black people

and Barbara Bush saying

they’re better off because

they didn’thave anything anyway.

So who cares?

That made me think,

The apple falleth

not far from thetree,

and we can see what

Mrs. Bush has raised and

we can see where

they got itfrom.

The middle class, the middle class

residential neighborhoods all over the city—

Lakeview, Midcity, Gentilly,

Tremé New OrleansEast—

were completely destroyed because of

the insurance situation. The cap on flood

was $250,000 and prices had gone

well beyondthat.

McMansions were built

and people financed them to the hilt

and homeowners’ insurance declared

that all thedamage was flood

and refused to pay out.

People who paid through the nose

were left with way high

mortgages farbeyond

their insurance sums

and so they’re ruined.

We moved to Vista Park in Gentilly in 1990.

There were 400 households of every sort of person—

white, black, creoles of color,

Southwest Asians,East Asians,

Hispanics, many university people.

We lived right next to

the London Avenue Canal

where thefloodwall breached.

One fellow had a three foot alligator in

his swimming pool. That’s how

destroyed the area was.

I saw the pictureof this poor,

misbegotten alligator that got lost

being dragged out and relocated to a more

salubrious place foralligators.

This story has notbeen told.

Many of us in New Orleans

had flood insurance, but thought coverage

came only from the government

which capped what

we could insure our structures for.

I did not know and few of us knew

that some companies underwrote

excesscoverage. I paid

flood insurance with my mortgage in escrow.

I never saw the paperwork annually.

I thought my agent was

raising my limitwith inflation

because I told him to

but he didn’t do diddly.

I was covered for one third

of the actualvalue of my home.

They hooed and hawed

but at last paid me that for flooding.

Homeowners insurance refused to pay

anything for thecontents.

They said it was all flood damage

which they don’t cover. They said

there was no wind damage.

The water came

after the wind.

It was hard to tell

unambiguously what was wind

and what was waterdamage.

I had plenty of insurance but

like everyone else I

didn’t get anything

to speak of.

I did receive $4000 for

“alternative living expenses.”

You can get this sum for

a mandatoryevacuation.

We had that, but my company,

the evil Travelers, said, No,

you left because of

a non-coveredperil, a flood.

I said, No no no, no, no, no.

There was no flood.

There was a hurricane in the Gulf

and the flood didnot occur

until after the hurricane passed.

Therefore you are on the hook

for my alternative living

expenses. Please remit.

I evacuated to Baton Rouge,

and knew my house was ruined

because I saw it on CNN underwater.

They showed thatshot again and again.

The tanks from the Shell station

on the corner spread their iridescence

through that filthy watereverywhere

and I knew it wasall over.

I didn’t get back until Mardi Gras.

It took awhile to screw up my courage.

Edward and his wife came with me

to see what waswhat.

There was no salvage, so I thought,

just take a look. It was all gone—

yearbooks, diplomas, familypictures,

medievalmanuscript pages, medieval coins

I collected of each of the medieval King Edwards

for my son, my mother’s mid-century modern,

which is now gettingcollectible—

everything. Everything.

The only thing I got back—

I hid my jewel box so well during the 1995 flood

I never found it again.

I called the JewishFederation

to gut the house, and I said,

I’m an old lady, will you help me?

And they said Yes,

but they clearedthe house out,

said someone else would gut it.

Operation Noah called me to arrange to gut

thehouse. Then they asked, Are youborn again?

AndI said, Is this the Jewish Federation?

I thought I was dealing with the Jewish Federation.

No, they were Southern Baptists! I said,

Iam not baptized.

Iam not saved.

But they told me they would still gut my house,

so I said, Fine, whatever.

Thank you. Those Southern Baptists

walk the walk, Iwill say that.

They found my jewel box and did not steal it.

So now I have my diamond again.

Mardi Gras was really quite nice.

Edward and his wife got into the spirit

quickly. They dressed as

fucking ninja, that was their costume.

Elaine went to an adult toy store

to make nunchucks out of

two dildos andnipple clamps.

They had their little black outfits on,

and Elaine took a video of herself

nunchucking

at Mardi Gras.

When I turned up Charlotte Drive to go home,

you know, a last time, I passed my next door neighbor,

the one closer to Fillmore thanI.

There was a bigsign in front—

“This house sheltered a family for forty years”—

and when I saw it I cried.

Elizabeth’s Story

(homehealthcare aide, nursing student)

We as New Orleanians

still don’t have that truthfulness about the water.

Everything has been sinking, getting worse.

But after hearing—what’s his name—

who went to talk to Bush,

Farrakhan said toPresident Bush:

They blew upthose levees

to keep the waters from

certain sections of the city.

It’s a question mark in my mind

that’s what’s going on now.

This is my secret

to me that Ibelieve

deep in my heart.

I was taking care of my mother

and my disabled son, Anthony,

whose legs are amputated. I worked

12 hour overnight shifts weekends—

during the week I took nursing courses—

and the agency asked if I could stay

with Dr. Drew and his wife. I said, No,

I’m responsible for my family. “We got

Inez to relieve you Sunday.” So I said Ok.

Sunday morning the agency called,

“Inez is running late. Could you

stay with the Drews till she comes?”

Dr. Drew said, I’m so grateful

you’re staying here with us, and

I knew then something was wrong.

They’re not like that.

They’re white and

they’reprejudiced.

You do your job

and that’s that. I called the agency back.

No answer. Noreturn call. I found out later

they’d left, were calling me from New York!

They’d messed me around.

I phoned my sister—had to almost

curse her out—to go get our mother

and get on out just before,

as they say, allhell break loose.

At 5:45 p.m. mynightmare began.

The mayor said, We’re fixin’ to

lock the city down, so then I left

to get Tony, but they done closed

the bridge. Therewas

a silence like I was all alone.

I thought, I’ll just go home

and think—pick up my son

the nextday—but if I’d

done that, I’d bedead.

My sister called, Liz, God just told me

you got to leave. But I don’t have Tony,

I cried. You drive to the Superdome.

I’m gonna talk to you until

you reach it. It was 6:05.

The wind is whipping and whipping

and I’m screamingand hollering

and my sister’spraying and praying.

30,000 people at the Superdome.

I asked God, What am I supposed to do?

My son is alone inthat high rise.

A patient phoned me, Girl,

you’re on my mind.

We’re at a hotel near the casino.

You drive on over and help us.

All night I sat by the window listening

to a roar like trains outside.

Monday I wanted to get my son,

but was told if I left I couldn’t return.

Tuesday, I thought I saw water

coming up but everyone said,

Aw, girl, it’s in your mind.

I couldn’t think anymore.

Wednesday, the hotel called a meeting.

They gave us a baloney sandwich,

a cup of coffee, took all our keys,

and put us out. You know how

those people ended up at

the Convention Center? We

were shoved. And everybody

changed. Hidfood and water.

I did not want to go there.

I had a truck full of gas at the hotel,

but my keys were on the 13^th floor,

so I’m walking up, my heart pounding—

I have a bad heart—and had took

my last heart pill. A guy coming down

was shaking so bad he bumped me.

White guy. Namewas Steve Huff,

a lawyer from Oklahoma. Miss,

do you have a car? Yes I do,

I said, if I can find my keys, but please,

tell the police I’m going back up.

On the 8^th floor, I said, God,

I didn’t ask for this. I could have left

the city. I wasput in a position.

My inner voice told me, Elizabeth,

you are a missionary.

You got to—WHOO!—

you got to digdown

and call on the Lord, whatever happens.

On the 9^th floor, I cried, Lord, Just give me

a little water, please. I feellike I’m going

my last mile. As God is my witness,

on the 10^th floor was a bottle of water!

On the 13^th floor, I broke down

the door for my keys and in 30 minutes

found my truck. I crawled in and

collapsed. Thencame on down.

People were begging, pulling on the car.

I took 5 out of the city. Steve said,

You are my angel. I have $30,000

in my pocket. What do you need?

I’m not like that, I said. Just give me somewhere

to rest myself. I went into a motel.

Was told me there was no room.

Then Steve went inand

they gave him aroom.

My son was trapped 7 days,

didn’t know who he was

when they found him. I listed him with

the Red Cross, all the Gospel channels,

and America’s Most Wanted,

for their database. The Red Cross

asked for a DNA sample from me. I said,

Ma’am, I know you’re not supposed to,

but could you please look at those bodies

for me? Baby,we have hundreds of bodies,

so decomposed, but a couple fit

your son’s details. I couldn’t handle it.

I was put on antidepressants—

most of usare—going

through thedepths of grief.

I was trying to come to

grips that God took my son. Spirit said,

You see that pole standing there?

You lean on it because that pole

is Me. You place your trust

in My hands. 5:30 next morning,

I got a call, We have found your son.

A whole year? Then I didn’t know

for a week if he’d make it. He was septic.

The worst thing is

to lose yourchild.

I lived that for a year.

The system failed us. The disabled,

the elderly were leftto fend

for themselves. It’s not right.

It’s not right. It’s left a scar for life.

People ask, Will New Orleans

be New Orleans again, with the poor,

the kind-hearted,that jazzy lively

jazz? The love we had was killed.

The city is a ghost town

and each solitaryvoice

is a forgottenvoice.

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Acknowledgments:

I thank the Katrina evacuees who have shared the stories ofduress, courage, and survival with me: Jim Davidson, artist and expert in fineantique restoration, former resident of the Bywater district; Miriam Youngerman Miller, aretired professor of Medieval Studies from University of New Orleans, former residentof Gentilly; and Elizabeth Sutton, now a nursing student in Mesa and a formerhomecare aide and resident of Gentilly. These are interview-poems and their words are used with permission. I also thank the collage and sculptureartist, Jana Napoli, whose assemblage, FLOODWALL, the first two poems in thisseries describe looking for and finding. A few of the quotations in the poem, “After the Flood,” are from herassemblage (permissions requested). I’ll thank the unknown vet who spoke to me in New York: your words hauntme, Jonathan. I hope mine find youdoing better. And finally, I thankJeannine Savard, Chris Burawa, and Barbara Cully who first read these poems and encouraged meto continue, and Maxine and Jonathan Marshall, whose endowed gift to ArizonaState University made it possible for me to come to Tempe and to do this work.

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Cynthia Hogue has published fivecollections ofpoetry, most recently The Incognito Body(Red Hen Press, 2006).She is the co-editor (with Elisabeth Frost) of Innovative Women Poets: An Anthology ofContemporary Poetry andInterviews(University of Iow Press, 2006), and (with Julie Vandivere) of the first edition of H.D.’s The Sword Went Out to Sea (Synthesis of a Dream), byDeliaAlton (University Press of Florida, 2007). She has received Fulbright, NEA (poetry), and NEH (Summer Seminar) Fellowships. In2005, she was awarded H.D. Fellowship at the Beinecke Library at Yale University. Hogue taught inthe MFA program at the University of New Orleans before moving to Pennsylvania, where she directedthe Stadler Center for Poetry at Bucknell University for eight years. While in Pennsylvania, shetrained in conflict resolution with the Mennonites and became a trained mediator specializing indiversity issues in education. In 2003, she joined the Department of English at Arizona StateUniversity as the Maxine and Jonathan Marshall Chair in Modern and Contemporary Poetry. She livesin Phoenix with her husband, the French economist, Sylvain Gallais.